How do you even begin to express your feelings for someone when you feel like they might not feel the same.
Relationships are hard, incredibly hard. Especially when you’re ready to take the next step in a relationship. I’ve never been the first to say I love you. I’ve never been the one to feel so emotionally exposed. I feel like I’m losing myself because I can’t say these 3 words.
I don’t wanna lose him and I don’t wanna scare him off. But being with him has made me a better person and has put life into a whole new perspective. He makes me the person I want to be. How do I even begin to say those words to him?
Tapping back into my creativeness. Started acting classes again. Dabbling more in songwriting. I’m letting my true emotions out. It’s a release for me at this moment in my life. It’s time to show the world and mainly myself what I’m capable of. I know I have true talent inside. Time to set it free.
As two families separate a new journey awaits. It’s hard to believe that after 21 years of my family being as one it is about to separate into two.
Divorce is an awful thing no matter what age you are. Me being 21, doesn’t make things any easier just puts things more into perspective. Does true love really exist?
What does this mean for future Christmas celebrations?
You start to rethink everything.
In the end I know it’ll be okay and that this doesn’t define me. Its just a hard place to be in right now.
Sometimes they can be
Whatever it is, you will get through it. Through strength, grace, and power everything is going to be okay in the end.
Sometimes it takes a hard hitting experience to wake up and smell the roses. To re evaluate your life and rethink your decisions. Whatever it may be that your going through, it will all work out in the end.
Through time and patience, all will come to a peak of light and hope.
I’ve learned through my hard hitting wake up call that my life was not going in the direction I wanted it to go in. I was in a verbally abusive relationship, skipping class occasionally, not giving a fuck about who I was and where I was headed.
I learned through my wake up call, I am worth more than I ever could have imagined. There is hope for me. A future, a loving relationship, and a light at the end of the tunnel.
I am ready to conquer this life.
I am ready to become my mightiest self.
Journaling. It’s good for the soul. Good for the mind. I’ve decided to take this back up after recent events in my life. I forgot how a pen and a piece of paper can you take you places that you could have never imagined. It is the therapy I’ve been needing in my life. I hope to bring peace and happiness in my life through this lost art form.
Have you ever felt so down and out so far beneath the ground that you feel like there’s no way to climb back up? Ever felt the crowds move so far ahead of you that your left to pick up the pieces?
Life is not a fun place to be if your me right now.
I’m in a dark place where I feel there’s no where and no one to turn to. This isn’t a suicide note in fact that is far from my mind as of now. I feel as though I have let down my family friends and myself. Like I’m a big hassle for everyone to deal with. I feel as if my heart is desiring something unattainable that ill never be able to reach that level of success. I keep waiting for hope to whisper try once more but hope is so far ahead in the distance. I hate school. I hate my job. I hate who I’ve become. It’s not someone my little self would have had wanted at 21.
I haven’t had the easiest life growing up with people. I used to be bullied harassed teased everyday I’d step foot onto my catholic school campus. It seems now I am the bully. The bully of myself and my own life. I give up to easily. I surrender to failure and settle for nothing high up. I can’t believe this is where I’m at. I want to be successful and one day maybe I will. But why can’t I move forward with my life? Why am I stuck in this quick sand I’ve created for myself?
Maybe one day ill be able to gather these answers but for now, I’m on a downward spiral to disaster.
Sorry I haven’t posted in a while! But here it is! My review on meeting Alex Clare!
I first saw Alex perform his sound check and wasn’t too familiar with his music so I’ll admit I kind of spaced out during his sound check set.
After the sound check, I got my picture with him and he was so amazingly sweet! He asked me some questions and kept saying thank you thank you for coming.
I was blown away by how nice this guy was!
Before the show I walked backstage to go outside and who do I see but Alex Clare on the BBQ grilling hot dogs and hamburgers!!
He looked right at me and said “Hey do you want a hot dog?!” Like an idiot I turned around looking for who he was talking to and realized he was talking to me! I casually walked over to him (even though I was a wee bit star struck) and he proceeded to ask me what I wanted on my hot dog, if I wanted a drink etc.
After that, you could tell Alex was getting pumped for his show. He was doing vocal warmups and even surprisingly took the time to talk to fans who were screaming his name on the other side of the gate outside. You can tell he truly loves and cares about his fans.
During the show, I stood over by the side of the stage and completely fell in love with his whole set. The one thing I noticed about Alex as a performer is, he doesn’t really have a whole lot of stage presence but when he sings his songs he will look into each persons eyes and sing his lyrics with passion and excitement.
My favorite song he performed had to be Sanctuary which is on his album “The Lateness of the Hour.”
You could tell the crowds favorite was “Too Close”.
Alex performed his whole album including a couple of new songs.
Overall I had a great experience meeting such a great, talented artist.